Missing The Old You

Sometimes you miss a person not because you are far from each other. Its because you miss the same old person in him/her, you miss the old things you do together, the conversation no one could actually understand, only the two of you. And sad to say, sometimes that person is actually just around you. Sad to say, he/she doesn't notice the changes happened. 

I miss my old friend, I miss the stuffs we used to do together. I miss everything, I just miss my friend. I miss the friend I used to know.

I miss home.

Nakakamiss magpahinga.
Nakakamiss ang bahay namin.
Nakakamiss ko ang upuan ko.
Nakakamiss ang steady trip ko.
Nakakamiss ang buong bahay namin.
Nakakamiss ang tulog na 12 hours.
Nakakamiss ang magluto.
Nakakamiss ang magtimpla ng juice at ipalamig sa ref.
Nakakamiss ang manuod ng tv.
Nakakamiss ang soundtriping ko.
Nakakamiss ang magstay sa labas ng bahay at tignan ang mga halaman.
Nakakamiss ang makipag-usap sa alaga kong pusa.
Nakakamiss ang lahat ng ginagawa ko dito sa bahay.
Nakakamiss ang family ko.
Nakakamiss lahat.

Totoong at the end of the day, despite the happiness and lovely people outside the house, THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME.

I just miss home. I miss being home.
:(

I Know Now How It Feels

Dear God,

I know now exactly how it feels, when people are telling you "I have faith in you" yet at the back of their mind there is a doubt in what you can do for them. I am not You who can make all things possible, but I can feel if a person who tells me "I rely to you" is not that confident in me, in what I can be able to do. And yes You see what's inside our heart, read what's our our mind, so true that it feels bad how can someone pray to You and tell You that he is depending on You, yet in doubt. I feel the same way. Really, it matters, if someone should rely, then rely with all his faith.

Lesson learned Lord. :)

Still A Baby at 29th :)

After consuming my half day at the library with my group mates, my mother texted me and ask me to go home by 4pm. "Aalis si Dan uwi ka ng 4". So, ang mabait na youngest child na ayaw bigyan ng sama ng loob ang napakasupportive na mother at the same time my number 1 critic, :D since library will close at around 4pm, I decided to went home. I thought she asked me to be home immediately because may mga magrerent, well actually, its the case naman talaga. Its just, parang may something pa. The moment I entered the house, she immediately told me "May puto pa sa ref, kainin mo na, masarap". And so after I changed my clothes, she gave me the "puto". Di pa ko tapos kumain, she gave me another meryenda. "Kainin mo na 'tong tinapay dito, sayo na yan, ipalaman mo yung Spam". :D And while eating she told me, "nagluluto na ko ng hapunan, para mamaya makakain na rin tayo, may sabaw yun, nilaga." Para tuloy gusto kong itanong na, kaya nyo ba ko pinauwi para pakainin ng pakainin? Then after I have finished eating all the food she gave me, she gave me ripe banana and a glass of water.


It took me sometime to realized, last day nga pala, I told her na lage ako nalilipasan ng gutom lately, making me lose some weight, and this is due to our thesis. Last time nga pala nung nag-uusap kami, she told me, "wag kang magpagutom, kasi wala ka lalo maiisip na maganda kapag gutom ka. bakit mo titipirin sarili mo, may pera ka naman."


I just realized, at the age of 29, my mother still take care of me as her baby. Ako parin ang nag-iisa nyang little girl. Her youngest, her unica hija. Still baby at 29th. :) I have the best mother on earth! Thank you GOD for giving her to me, kahit pa nga, madalas kaming magtalo sa mga decisions in life, I know I'm kinda stubborn at times. But then again, I'm still thankful, though she is my number one critic, my number one enemy, she is the reason why I want to be successful. I want to prove her something, something different. At alam mo yun GOD kung ano yun. ;)