At Ako'y nagulat. Bow!

Its so surprising to know how I reacted when I saw it earlier! Bakit nga ba kasi ang aga ko nagbubukas ng facebook? Well simply because I wake up early.

Actually I'm prepared for it long time ago, it's just, its different if it's happening already. The moment you are already in the middle of the situation. You don't know what will be your reaction. Am I going to be mad? Am I going to be sad? One thing is clear, I knew I am surprised, though I am prepared for it long time ago, and I have accepted it. Still, I got surprised, and I know I'm a bit sad. Sad in a way, why you go first? Wala lang :(

But still, I need to move forward, keep the faith and track my fate. I just don't know what to say and how to react at the moment. Shall I say good luck? I guess not. I'll just do my things and fulfill the promised I have made. To see you in 3 years time, and I'm still very determine to fulfill it. 1 year down, 2 more!

<3
Nobody knows ... I hide it inside
(nobody does, really....)

Why can´t this feeling just fade away
(its been quite some time. . . . . . )

There´s no one like you ...
You speak to my heart...
(you really do)

I´m too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
(I guess this is the moment I need to choose, or should I say to decide)

The Answer!

DATI PA
by: Aiza Seguerra

Intro: D-Bm-G-A-; (2x)

D A/C#
Hindi ka nawala sa isip ko
Em A
Kahit nagkalayo
D D7
Ang puso ko ay nasa 'yo
G Gm
Hindi pa rin nagbabago
F#m Bm
Itong aking nadarama
Em Fdim A
Mahal kita, di ba dati pa

Chorus
D A/C# F#sus-F#
Dati pa, gano'n na 'yon
Bm A G
Umiibig pa rin sa 'yo hanggang ngayon
Em Gm
At lagi kang mahal
D Bm
Hindi ako mag-iiba
Em A D
Mahal kita, di ba dati pa

Interlude: D-Bm-G-A-; (2x)

D A/C#
Di ka nalimutan, kahit kailan
Em A
Laging hinahanap
D D7
Hinahanap kahit saan
G Gm
Hindi pa rin nagbabago
F#m Bm
Di ka nag-iiba
Em Fdim A
Mahal mo rin ako, dati pa

(Repeat Chorus)

F# Bm
Bumalik ang kahapon na minsa'y nagdaan
E A A#
Nauulit ang tunay na pagmamahalan

(Repeat Chorus moving chords 1/2 step higher)

(Repeat Chorus moving chords 1/2 step higher,
except last word)

Cm-Cm7-F
... pa

Fm Bb (Coda)
Mahal kita, di ba dati pa

Coda: Eb-Cm-Ab-Bb-;
Eb-Cm-Ab-Bb-Eb

"kung tatanungin mo ako kung mahal kita?
dalawang salita lang ang isasagot ko sayo, "DATI PA".

I Can't Find the Words. . . . . . . .

Hay nakakainis! Panget talaga yung ganitong pakiramdam! Yung tipong may gusto kang gawin di mo alam pano uumpisahan, may gusto kang sabihin pero hindi mo mahanap ang tamang salita. I want to write an entry kasi, actually, I suppose to post this since December last year pa, and yet di ko pa sya nasisismulan. There's the thoughts already, even yung mga details, but very time I'm turning my thoughts into words, every time na ita-type ko yung mga salita, pag binasa ko na, iba yung dating e. Its not the exact thoughts na gusto kong iparating sa makakabasa. So ginagawa ko, ihinihinto ko na lang. Kapag nasa mood na ko, binabalikan at ni-edit ko, pero dahil its really a mess, dinelete ko na lang. Gulo ko diba?

Eto pa, isang realization ang napagtanto ko ngayon lang. Stalk kasi ako ng stalk ng Fb account e, haha! Naisip ko lang, bakit may mga bagay na parang ok naman, pero bakit di pumu-pwede? Yung tipong kapag titignan mo yung sitwasyon mukhang smooth naman, pero dahil ipananganak ata ako para mag-imbestiga, ayun I decided to find out the answers for my Q's. And na-realize ko, kaya pala ayaw ni GOD, kasi kapag nangyari yun baka hindi sa ikakabuti ng isang part. Alam siguro ni Lord na hindi sya para dun. Yung tipong may mas HIGIT para sa kanya. Now I know! Naisip ko lang, sayang nga naman kasi, matino pa naman yung tao, baka mapariwara lang sya. Hmmm, "birds with the same feathers talaga, flocks together". Tama, she should stay na lang sa kung ano sya ngayon. MUCH BETTER!

So dahil lutang parin ako, nag-play na lang ako ng music, napagdiskitahan ko namang patugtugin ang "The Past" ni Ray Parker Jr. Kasabay nun, pumasok naman sa isip ko ang kasabihan na sinusunod ng karamihan na "past is past". Well, sino ba naman kasing nagsabing ang past ay pwedeng maging present at maging future? Wala naman diba? Sounds pilosopo pero totoo naman. Im totally against on that statement. Kapag ba sinabing past dapat na lang ibaon sa limot? Hindi ba dapat na ang past ay maging inspirasyon sa pagharap sa kasalukuyan at sa kinabukasan? Hindi ba dapat lang na alalahanin natin ang gunita ng nakalipas. Kasi kung hindi, di sana hindi na pinag-aaralan ang History. At sana ay dini-disregard din natin ang Biblia. E samantalang ang sabi ni Elias sa Noli Me Tangere, "alalahanin ninyo kaming mga namatay sa dilim" at di sana ay di na natin ginugunita ang pagkapako sa krus ni Hesu-Kristo? At pinaka magandang sabihing, di sana di na tayo nagbi-birthday, kasi ang pagkapanganak satin ay part ng nakaraan. E bakit pa kung past is past?

At isa pang nakakainis ngayong hapon, me load nga ako wala namang nagtetext back sa mga tinetext ko! Hay sayang ang ATXT20! For all network pa naman, tapos ang masama nyan kapag natulog na ko saka ang daming nagtetext. Minsan dis oras ng gabi nagigising ako 24 msgs recieved! Ay ano ba! Mas mabuti pa talaga ang mag-blog na lang. I wonder sa mga sinulat ko, may mga na-touched na kaya akong lives? Naging instrument na kaya ako ni GOD para medyo mabago ko yung tingin nila sa isang particular na issue sa buhay nila? Well, hope so!

Hay tama na nga! Kung ano ano na pinagsasasabi ko. Sana naman matapos ko na yung blog entry na gustong gusto kong i-post. Sana I will be ablw to find the words na.

Are You One of Them?

I guess no one will argue with me if I say that we all wish to have that someone whom we can say our own. Because it always feels good to know that there is someone around if we are down to cheer us up. Sometimes its not the problem, its not even the reaction of the people around that scares us, but its the thought that you are alone in carrying your burdens. There are times when problems seemed easy to handle, though it was so huge, if there is someone who back us up. Not really helping us, but just knowing they are ready to hold us up again if we are about to fall. Just one tap at our back, then we are back in shape again.

Someone who will listen to every stories we will share every end of the day. In our busy days that a lot of things happened, we all want to share those stories to that particular person. What was our whole day look like. What we have encounter, if we eat well, if we slip on the floor, when we saw a beautiful scenery, or heard a mind resting music. We learn something new, heard a new jokes perhaps. Just to voice out what's our opinion on a certain topic, and share are insights. A person whom you can share those sensitive and intimate details of yours.

A person who will definitely stick to us through thick and thin. A person who will stand for us when everyone is in doubt.

That particular person we want to laugh and cry with. Let's admit the fact that its very easy to share our happiness to every one, but we choose people who will see our crying times. Because you only cry with someone that you know can give you comfort. And not to everyone. We certainly would want that it will be the same person we share our tears and our laughters.

The person whom we can share our dreams and ambitions. That in every goals we are pursuing, that person served as our inspiration. That no matter how many times we fail, we definitely strive to get back, because he or she is the reason behind. That in every details of our plans, we include that person in it. And when that dreams turns to reality, that person is still part of it. Along the way, sharing the fruits of our labor with that person.

But before looking for that particular person, did you ever try to ask your self, "Did I ever do that?" Think about this, did you ever try to be there for someone when that someone is about to fall? Did you ever listen to someone's story? Did you ever share your dreams with someone, or made that person the reason behind your ambitions? Have you try to cry and laugh with the same person? Did you stay with that person in his good and bad times?

If so, then YOU are one of those person who should be search. More often than not, searching for that kind of person is truly a hard task. Remember that there was an old saying "Be the change you want to see in this world." So if its hard to see that kind, then be one!

Isn't it nice if we found that person? After all, we are entitled to love and be loved.