Missing Myself :(

I miss the old me. The person who seemed to be so tough. Yung dating ako, na ako. I can't even recall why I became like this. I know this will end, maybe not sooner, but I know this emotional crisis will end soon. And I'm hoping it will not take that long. I'm tired of being like this, day by day I'm trying my very best not to be like this, but I don't know why, sometimes I ended up so negative. I miss the old me, the person I used to know was so positive, in everything I do, in ever person I communicate with. In every situation when nobody seemed to understand, I will. But why I am like this lately, I think in an irrational manner. I act in a way strange to my friends. I do things i supposed not to do. I miss the old person in me. And want that old persona back.

But how? When everybody seemed to misunderstood the things I'm doing, they think I'm having tantrums or just having a bad day. How? If they don't even bother to ask, actually they do. Its just, I lost the old me. Where can I find the missing Me? I know I'm just here, maybe I just need time to heal myself, from what? I don't know. All I know is I need to be heal, and I want the old Me to be back.

Can you please comeback as soon as you can? Can you please make it fast? I terribly myself, can you make it tomorrow? Can you please comeback so I can fix myself? I miss myself, and you know that, I miss you JONA, please don't make it longer? Comeback, because I'm starting to be a stranger to my own self. Comeback now please?

For me?

Grrrrr! Why I can't get you out of my mind?

"Sana puzzle na lang kayo,
para pwede kong ibalik sa dati ang lahat."

Story of the Wounded Child

One day, a girl invested care, love and attention to her so called extended family, her comfort zone. Everyday seemed so magical. Their day starts and ends with laughter and affection for one another. But just like any other relationship, for you to know if its solid already it has to be tested. An event that seemed ordinary broke the magical feelings for each and everyone. The lady invested too much love for her extended family begun to questioned their love towards her. She started asking herself, "did I became too much?" "did they really appreciate my concern? Or for them its just an option?"

When the time the girl wants to express her thoughts, there is no one available to listen. But the Lord sees her heart breaking, so in her despair, the Lord sent her an angel, in disguise. An angel in a form of a Hurt Child.

The Hurt Child said, "don't worry now, the Hurt Child is here to help the Wounded Child." Immediately, the Hurt Child comforted the girl and told to be strong . To smile and laugh despite of the pain. To try new things, like getting out from her comfort zone. For her to see the other side of the world, because the Hurt Child once experienced the same situation. The girl saw the beauty and sincerity of Hurt Child's words. And then on, a Wounded Child was born.

One day, she was decided to follow and try the Hurt Child's advice. Afraid that she might hurt and be hurt by her decision, the wounded child slowly stepped out of her comfort zone. And she saw the other people smiling at her, some told stories with her. And after the conversation they told her, "we dont get the chance to talk to you like this because you're always with your buddies." She even saw a person badly needs someones help at that day. Without any second thought, she immediately help. After doing so, the person says "thank you, love you dude!" The wounded child smiled. And then realized, I thought I already saw the beautiful side of the world because I'm in my comfort zone. But God is really mysterious and loving. He let me see the more beautiful version of the world. The side in which a lot of people are just waiting for her to notice them, and be given a chance to know them.

At the end of the day, the wounded child whisper a prayer to the Lord. She said, "Thank you very much, you always surprise me! You hide beautiful things and people with an unseemly start. Now I finally know realized the beauty of seeing the other side of the world. Thank you for using the Hurt Child, for me to be able to stepped out of my comfort zone and broaden my horizon. And now that I have stepped out, please guide me, and make me wise in making decisions, please show me those beautiful people that I should be spending my limited time in this world. I love You Lord. If you're with me, for sure I will be strong."

As she tries to live each day, she always remember that the Hurt Child told her, "smile lang. tawa lang."

Moral lesson, If you are being ignored, feel like family or friends are not appreciating what you do, you have alternatives. Be not afraid to get out from your comfort zone, someone else might be needing your help aside from the world you are in now, just waiting for you to notice them. People who might appreciate you and might be willing to show how worthy you are.

Just don't forget to, SMILE. LAUGH!Just like the Hurt Child & Wounded Child did.

:)
:D