RM to SEM 4

Grabe I feel exhausted na in doing this research. Pero yung pakiramdam na exhausted and somewhat you feel, half fulfilled. Half fulfilled kasi hindi pa naman tapos e, yung tipong alam mong youre getting there and doing the right track. So kahit pagod at masakit na sa mata, go padin. Kasi once naman natapos namin 'to based sa plan, for sure, this is something na I will be proud of naman. Haaaaaaaaaaay! Naalala ko lang bigla yung project ko sa SEM 4, kaya ayun pinanood ko uli. Parang I feel tired na kasi, so I paused for a while and pinanood ko uli sya. I want to find reason kasi why should I go on and overcome this tiring feeling. Althoug dapat lang naman, not mainly because for compliance but, alam mo kasi na eto na yun e, yung moment na babalik balikan mo sa college, na eto yung nahihirapan ka, kumbaga, another obstacles to overcome. Ayun, after watching my project, I found reason and meaning again. Sarap lang! Kahit pressured, ini-enjoy mo parin bawat moment.

God bless me! With God nothing is impossible. He will work on this, definitely He will guide me along the way. I know it. I always does! thought for the day: "If you are confused, tired and exhausted, cannot find any reason why you should go and continue, look back and think of your previous accomplishments."

Mark Caguioa; My Guy, My MVP!

I have always been a Ginebra die hard, since I was a child. Seeing my team winning a game, championship and achieving individual awards makes me proud of them. Today is one of the most happiest part of my life being a Ginebra fan. Seeing Mark Caguioa finally achieved the most prestigious award, a basketball player could ever achieved. Making him the 37th PBA Most Valuable Player. Finally he got the plum, that WE as a fan believed, it was rubbed to him twice. For us, its not his first but actually, his third, if the two were given to him before.

This is such a sweet day for me. So proud of my idol! He really, really deserved it. Haaaaaay! what else to say? But CONGRATULATIONS MARK CAGUIOA! You're the man!

(credit to the owner of this photo)

Mark Caguioa to the Ginebra fans:

"You make me proud to wear Ginebra jersey!"

My Promise

They don't understand. . . .

If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your hearts starts to wonder, where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you come back into the place that we meet
You can see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

I'm not moving
I'm not moving. . . . . . .

Matakaw akong tao, halos lahat kinakain ko nga e.

Kahit nga "pride" kinakain ko kung kailangan. It's just so sad na there are times talaga na kung sino pa yung madalas mong kasama, yun talaga yung hindi pala talaga nakakakilala ng tunay na ikaw. Yung tipong they are too afraid to tell you your mistakes, if there is. They will hide it, eventually later on, malalaman mo na lang sa ibang tao. Or, they just pretend ok lahat and nothing is wrong, everything is smooth.

Nakakalungkot lang isipin na I thought they perceive me as transparent, na if they want to tell me something, one text away or msg thru fb and twitter lang ako. Pero hindi, there's a wall among us pala. For them pala, its hard to open up. To tell in front of my face na ganito ako, ganyan ako. They perceived me pala as "di tumatanggap ng mali."

Yung pakiramdam na, you thought "aaaah ok sila sakin, kasi wala naman sila nababanggit." Pero kaya pala wala sinasabi, kasi, totally, as in totally, its the other way around.

Masakit kasi, lagi sa ibang tao ko nalalaman. And one thing, sobrang malapit pa sakin yung mga taong nagrereklamo sakin ng ganun. Sad, kasi whenever I asked them naman, it seems nothing is wrong. Ang bigat lang sa loob.

Kung pwede na lang sana buksan na lang nila yung puso at isip ko para kahit di na ko magsalita, para makita nila yung totoo kong nararamdaman, yung purity and sincerity ng friendship na ino-offer mo sa kanila. Kaso hindi ganun yun e. Sobrang disappointing lang talaga.

Kumakain ako ng pride, tumatanggap ako ng mali, nagso-sorry ako kapag dapat. Sana makita din nila yun. Sana i-try din nila. Siguro nga this time around, I need to change, my approach, my personality, me as friend sa kanila, para somehow mabago naman yung perception nila towards me. Baka siguro ako nga yung may mali. Tsaka baka, ako lang ang nakakaalam na akala ko "transparent" ako. Yung tipong sakin talaga yung diperensya.

Ok sige, ta-try ko paglabas ng bahay namin, pagdating ko sa school. God, walk with me ha? Let's do this together, ikaw lang kasi nakakakita ng laman ng puso ko e. You know very well what's inside.

:'(

"nakakalungkot isipin how people often don't value those things you did for them, all they can see is your errors and faults, which is actually just the cause of what they did."

"I think I need to change my approach, this time. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . "

"nakakadisappoint lang."

:(

I am super pampered

The other day, I was not feeling well. I feel like I will be having a colds, and oh yes! The next morning my head is heavy and I can't breath that much because my nose is clogged. Since my brother (the second child) is going to the supermarket to buy stuff in the house. I asked him to buy me tissue that I will be needing for the next consecutive days. I asked him to buy me a roll of two-ply tissue.

When he got home, I look for the tissue immediately. As I opened the plastic bag, I got surprised and touched. He bought me this.

I only asked for a roll, he bought me four rolls! :) And not only that, he even bought a can of Dole Pineapple juice for me to drink so I will recovered faster.

I may not have a sister, but that doesn't make me feel incomplete. Having these two brothers of mine who always steps up to fill the absence of a girl sibling makes my world enough to make others envy of me.

I am super pampered indeed! :)

My Endopsychic Conflict

Dear Jona,

Get a life! Hard headed! Don't you dare help him again, for he is always committing the same mistake over and over again. If he has his problem, you care for him TOO MUCH, as in too much! If he is okay, did he still listen to you? Diba may sarili naman syang decision? Choice nya yun e. Nasasaktan ka lang ng paulit-ulit. Sarili mo na lang ang isipin mo.

-ID


Dear Jona,

Kapag ginawa mo yun, masahol ka pa sa walang kwentang tao! He has chosen you because he know you will always help him and you will understand him always. Kaya ikaw ang pinili nya, he has a lot of friends whom he can tell the whole thing, pero ikaw ang pinili nya sa lahat. Dahil sayo sya may tiwala. Gagawin mo ba yun? Kung nalilito ka na, di you pray to God, gaya ng lagi mong ginagawa.

-SUPEREGO


Dear Jona,

Its true na he trusted you that much, hindi madali yung pinagdaanan nya at alam mo yan. Sayo lang sya sumasandal if he is down. He may commit the same mistake over and over, pero kaya ka nga andyan e. Siguro lang, medyo dumistansya ka muna, let him feel na hindi mo magugustuhan yung gagawin nya if ever. Ganun lang, take it easy, sabi nga ni Maam Ria, "don't be too hard on yourself". Mapapansin at mapapansin naman nya yan e, na you're getting colder and colder, if he asks you, then say so. Pero 'wag kang bumitiw, ok? Pray ka lang. :) Everything will be okay, ganun talaga, genuine kang kaibigan e. Part yan, masasaktan at masasaktan ka, ok lang yan, alam naman ni Lord lahat yan e. Ok? :)

-EGO

Saved by Nognog :D

This week is sooooo tiring! Nevertheless, there still reason to find happiness, kahit mga small things in life lang. Happy! Finally I bought this bag para sa baby lappy ko :) Thanks to my buddy who always catch me when I'm about to fall, haha! I'm short of cash, muntik ko na hindi mabili ang bag, good thing I have an angel beside me earlier. Haaaay, nawala ang pagod ko, nakuha ko na yung gusto ko, na-prove ko pang mahal ako ng buddy ko, ang sweet! 2 in a row, ako na ang Pampered! Ako na ang may Nognog, sweet lang :) bait bait!

Oh, by the way, here's the bag. :)