The Last Time I said "I'm Sorry"

Last night I was chatting with my friend. As our conversation goes on, there were words and things I have said which made him confused about his decision. I'm just pointing out my concerns, its just that, maybe I have delivered it in a confusing manner. And I for myself also got confused also, so in the end, I retracted my statement. Not that I'm not unsure about it. Its just that I don't want him to feel as if I'm imposing something. God knows I only want what nothing, but good intentions. Our conversation ended, me saying "sorry".

While I was in bed and my migraine is attacking me, an old feeling strikes. I suddenly remember, it was quite sometime I never use the word "sorry". Since the time I decided to cross and walk in different path, this was the first time I said the word "I'm sorry" to a friend. Specifically to a male friend.

Although looking at it, it seems the same, but, it was not actually as close as it was. Before, when I say "I'm sorry", it was a result of careless joke or a discussion resulted into a misunderstanding. But now, it was a result of an advice that was not clearly define. And I must admit, it was my fault. Minamigraine na kasi ko during that time, I feel like I'm going to vomit any moment. So I didn't finish my explanation. 

Natawa ako, kasi from the day I changed my prospective in life in terms of friendship, this was my first time again to say "sorry" to a friend. And surprisingly, feels different too. Yung manner how I view and what to expect ibang iba na. I can't describe exactly what was the difference, pero may difference na talaga at malaki. Maybe, factor din, kasi sa ibang kaibigan ako nagso-sorry at the moment. Nothing, its just, I remember lang. :)

Looking back from the last time I said "I'm Sorry" it was traumatic, and nakakadala, Unlike now, nagso-sorry ako for a better reason, to a much better person, and I know a much higher form of friendship.